Update

Have been trying to write something interesting and clever but I can’t so here’s a regular update.

The project is going well. I am learning a lot. The producer gives me a lot of responsibility. I felt inadequate and uneasy during the last project I did for her cos I didn’t think I was doing a very good job. But then of her own accord, she decided to pay me 25 percent more than what we had settled for. So I obviously did okay.

I have been feeling like I’ve been taken advantage of by a friend and his writer friend who has been staying with me. I’ve been too nice and giving and I am angry with myself for not being more assertive and drawing huge big lines like I should have. We are both also on permanent PMS mode and so have been rubbing each other the wrong way. She can be very patronizing which really gets my goat. On the other hand, she is very good with my cat and has long conversations with him in Marathi. I can’t be sure yet, but I think she may be brilliant. Guess we’ll just have to tolerate each other till the end of this week. My friend is really going to get it though once she leaves, he has behaved most badly.

I had an appointment with a therapist on Wednesday but I cancelled it. Will make another for this week and show up this time. One half of me is kicking and screaming and dragging her heels in the ground and the other half is dragging her by the collar, knowing it must be done. Will not make the mistake of keeping things inside again. Actually this time I don’t think I have the option of keeping it inside, if I do I will surely go nuts.

It is raining :)

I have been out every night this week. Suddenly everyone seems to want to hang out with me.

Ooh have to run – need to be at the studio by noon!